My first!!

1.Do this tag and answer all the questions in your own blog.
2. Delete question no.20 and add one of your own question instead.
3. Tag 8 victims to do this tag.

Questions:

1.What is your dream when you were a small kid?
to grow up so i can drive to the playground by myself.

2.What is the happiest thing in your whole life?
i got to actually feel like im a part of the ocean the last time i went snorkelling

3.What do you wish to have right now?
ice cream. preferably something with rum in it.

4.When is the last time you horse laughed?
i dont horse laugh. i snort. it was when Hong Seng said something about testicles.

5.What did you realize recently?
i shouldnt get married early. i lack the patience and since im a guy, im afraid of commitment.

6.Which bad habit in you that is the most unacceptable?
i tend to scrutinize. and problem is, i dont even know what scrutinize means.

7.When you are unhappy, what will you do?
i bite my pillow, listen to the cardigans, take hourlong showers and eat.

8.What are you afraid of losing?
body parts

9.Within 5 years, which target is the most realistic one?
i have always been realistic.

10.When you meet someone that you like, will you profess or hide your feeling?
i stay close but i never profess.

11. List out 3 kinds of people you hate the most.
i hate everyone. its just the matter of how much.

12.Define loneliness.
great all-about-myself time

13.Are you satisfied with your life now?
i dont know.

14.When is the most recent time you felt touched?
when a freak slapped my ass when i walk pass him.

16. A song that is playing in your mind recently.
its playing over your speaker now ( if you have one).

17. If you have a wish to come true, what is it?
i get to go to where i want to go to further my studies (ask me).

18. Do you have anything to be worried or scared recently?
i have been worried ever since Borat in a hideous underwear was classified as a celebrity.
scared? none that i have realised

19.If the world is going to end, what will you do?
i'll drink to all the sins mankind has ever done

20.do you love cheese?
yes i do.

and i tag..... anyone who wants tagging.
this is not a free-for-all blog the last time i made sure i checked

little things people do

"God will forgive me.

It's his job."
-Heinrich Heine

im home. reason: -none of the listed-

i just realized how bitter my blog is becoming. its scary. and well, not something i would like reading anyway. come on, wake up to a sunny day with a tune in your head. switch the computer on and blip you see marcus' blog and wheres the tune again? lol.

prologue
im sick. i have a fever that wasnt even mine to discover to begin with and theres this crude, almost disbalancing throbbing pain in my head that really gets into my nerves. good thing: i am skipping marching practice as i type this.

morning
its great to get to oversleep. i woke up early enough to find myself home alone. the sunlight is bleak. ever since we gotten this tinted windows. the house just dont seem as lively anymore. walked around. switched on the telly: no crappy reality series or lousy yesterday-years movie worth my time. bla bla bla bla im here.

just seconds ago...
i read a few blogs and mine and one i found in a recent edition of a magazine. then i realized. goodness. im so bitter for no reason reason enough for me to be bitter without looking like an immatured mehshugga.

new resolution
i'll do whatever it takes to smile through everything! even if it makes me look like im constipated. i'll just be optimistic. it wont be all that hard. i have a home. i have my sanity. i have lots of things where some people on the other side of the world would kill for. i've been whining.
i'll admit that. so here goes....
...
(im smiling without any reason at my computer)
...
..
.
thank god no one is looking at me. haha .
lo and behold, hey i feel better already!

so it goes
now i need to go grab something to eat. you dont weigh 83 kilogrammes for no reason you know.


loves, hugs, apple strudels, and all things warm and fuzzy

marcs

long enough

it has been awhile since my last post. to the point where someone went bezerk and go "Update! Update!" on my blogroll (to that someone:dont stop its cute).

so what have i done over my period of absence? only an ex-form 5s may truly understand. catching up with school is much harder than usual when added with the weight of knowing that spm may suddenly be in my face if i dont tread around time carefully. so as many may presume, lots of homework and tuition and studying and tuition.

its hectic, life currently. since i have never took tuitions for more than one subject. or at one point of last year, two subjects but i stopped for the exact same reason why i want to fall sick and sleep for the next whole week. its crazy how people i see around me scurry from one tuition to another so efficiently without going on the brink of crying unintendedly.

honestly im so fragile nowadays. i break at the slightest details like the way a tree sways or how blue the sky is (emo i know). i have a feeling that this is the early signs of depression.
......

god its late. i have to go get myself ready to kick and strive tomorrow.
sigh...

i so need a motivation.
realize how dramatic my language gets when im deprived of my carefree years?? get used to it. until SPM is over, this is what you'll see.

oh heres something! someone i know just got engaged two days ago!
aww...its so sweet. its like reading a jodi picoult novel..

signing out,
*poof*

im so not in the mood.

dunno why but just very ....blu.
i dont find any possible reasons to be so but i just do.

oh it rhymes.
lol. if i continue i might actually create a song .

....
....
....
......crackle...CRANK!!...crackle..SCREeeech...sizz.....

great...now i feel even worse.

signing out

Homework at its worst.

a partial reply to ayesha: (its what u want to be called nowadays right?).

weekend was *blank* *blank*.
went to education fair and made a total fool out of myself by having no ambition. heres what i said to all those who asked what course i plan to take."i'm basically ambition-less can you recommend any?" . almost every exhibitionist gave me a blank look.
lol. i could almost see the clockwork in their heads creak and crackle while they figure me out.

BM homework literally took over me the entire weekend. try having notes that need to be done for half an antology (the chair: go figure) waiting at home. and your teacher being the *ask me* who started the day with a pervert-ish joke.

every five minutes i have a damn "little" voice shouting just above my right shoulders "HELLO?? HOMEWORK NO NEED DO AR??"

damn imaginary alter-ego: spoilsport.

the brighter side:
i went to banana republic with a friend. the people there were nice. the clothes: nyea. picked up a pair of jeans . saw the price. pretended that theres no size for me and walked out.

lol.
talk about an adventure of sorts.

PS: i hear the voice again.
signing out

SCRATCH THAT!

re-read my previous post and i take back the whole hail mary crap .that guy asked for fifty cents before i left. weird...

eventhough its still cheap but hello?? its not free so i dedicate the previous post to myself again.